Yes and no. I have been attending 12 step meetings for somewhere around 15 years and I have gone no further than step 2. There is something about daily step work that has just eluded me so far. Part of it is my ADD, the rest I believe is my fear of giving up my addiction. and not wanting to face the pain that it hides. I am hopeful that the steps will work for me. That they will free me of my past, help me develop strength enough to face life, and a frame work to remain sober.

I hope that the shame of past actions will be removed. I hope that I will learn to do hard things. I hope that I will learn to face my fears, doubts, and the pain I have always run from.

I will fail. I will not follow through with the work. I will be unable to handle life without lust.

If i'm being honest I have a lot of doubt that a daily working of the steps will work for me, because i have never before succeeded at it. I'm hoping that this structured format will help. I am also not willing to completely give up. So I will try again a different way, and I will keep trying until I figure it out.

I feel like this question belongs in step 3. I'm not ready for this yet that's why i'm here.

I am practicing self compassion, I am letting go of perfectionism. I will do my best to keep moving and depend on feedback from my sponsor and reworking of the steps if necessary to help me be thorough enough to achieve lasting sobriety. I will fight against the urge to isolate and give up.

Perfectionism, Control of the process

Yes. I've worked all of the steps previously and I'm ready to work them again this time focusing on my relationships.

A change of heart.

I will start to coast again.

I know it will work. I'm more worried about working it myself.

Yes. I'm willing to let go of my addiction. I do that one day at a time. But I'm also ready to let go of trying to do my relationships by myself. I need God to show me what I need to do differently and open my heart and my wounds to him to change me.

A commitment to daily logging in and working these steps.

Whatever it takes!

Yes I have done a step one with my group and even though it was very difficult I felt better completing it

Healing for me and my family

I won’t change

I feel being more consistent with my recovery will keep me on a healthy path

I hope so.
My marriage is hanging by a thread

I am learning tools I never new were available

The old me

Yes, I am ready to know the true me and the be that has felt hurt this whole time

I will know myself and inner child better.

Losing people that I love

Consistency is key and will allow me to keep what I need to at the front of my mind.

I am. I got a glimpse of what I am without this addiction and I want that in my life.

I have support and have something to actively strive within my recovery

Fuck yes

I want to work the steps so that I can change. I have been an advanced addict for years. I am tired of the relapses. I am ready to get to the next level in life. I really want to live in recovery and be able to serve in the church however God wants me to. I want to worry less about myself and more about others.

I hope that I can heal the broken parts. I hope I can learn to deal with my "lust" temptations in such a way that I can stay away from pornography and masturbation. I hope that I will be able to connect with people at a whole new level.

I am afraid that I might fail. I am afraid that it won't be enough and that I will continue to struggle with this for the rest of my life. I am afraid that Erin wont love me the same way because of my struggles.

I feel that it will help because it will help me focus on being the best me every single day. I think it will help me stay focused on establishing those habits that will help me the most.

I am ready to let go of my addiction. I need to give it to God and pray that he will take it from me. Now, because I am getting married to Erin. Now, because I should already be past my addiction. Now, because I am ready to serve God. Now, because my kids need me to be better.

The consistancy of my efforts will be different. I am going to go to meetings, work the steps, see my therapist, and work on my holy habits and righteous routines. I am going to follow the four pieces of the pie that Steven talks about in SAL.

I am willing to leave everything behind. I am willing to install what I need to install on my computers and my mobile devices to protect me from getting access to things I shouldn't. I am going to be completely honest and open to Erin. I want to be a new man. I am willing to sell all that I have and follow the Savior. I want to be better. I want to be the man that I can become with just a little bit more effort. The focus and consistancy is what I need.

I want to work the steps so that I can change. I have been an advanced addict for years. I am tired of the relapses. I am ready to get to the next level in life. I really want to live in recovery and be able to serve in the church however God wants me to. I want to worry less about myself and more about others.

I hope that I can heal the broken parts. I hope I can learn to deal with my "lust" temptations in such a way that I can stay away from pornography and masturbation. I hope that I will be able to connect with people at a whole new level.

I am afraid that I might fail. I am afraid that it won't be enough and that I will continue to struggle with this for the rest of my life. I am afraid that Erin wont love me the same way because of my struggles.

I feel that it will help because it will help me focus on being the best me every single day. I think it will help me stay focused on establishing those habits that will help me the most.

I am ready to let go of my addiction. I need to give it to God and pray that he will take it from me. Now, because I am getting married to Erin. Now, because I should already be past my addiction. Now, because I am ready to serve God. Now, because my kids need me to be better.

The consistancy of my efforts will be different. I am going to go to meetings, work the steps, see my therapist, and work on my holy habits and righteous routines. I am going to follow the four pieces of the pie that Steven talks about in SAL.

I am willing to leave everything behind. I am willing to install what I need to install on my computers and my mobile devices to protect me from getting access to things I shouldn't. I am going to be completely honest and open to Erin. I want to be a new man. I am willing to sell all that I have and follow the Savior. I want to be better. I want to be the man that I can become with just a little bit more effort. The focus and consistancy is what I need.

I guess, I'm looking forward to the feeling of knowing that I'm doing something about my problem. I need to keep in mind that working the steps and not just reading them is necessary.

I hope that healing happens. I hope that I'll really change this time, and that strength will come.

That nothing will change, and that solution will be a hopeless fantasy.

It's continual, and it will be a constant and repetitive effort to change and heal.

Yes. I've always wanted this, but I didn't know exactly what to do about it. I know understand the solution to my problem will take more than just scripture reading and prayer.

I will be actively doing something to change. My lifestyle will change, and my will will have a place to manifest.

The things that I hate about myself. My laziness, my foolishness. I'm willing to leave my lust behind me. I'm willing to leave bad habits behind. It's easier said than done, but I'm willing.

No. But nothing else I have tried, which has been nothing but that which I tried on my own, has worked. But I’m at a loss. Have been kicked out of my house and am on the verge of losing my family and myself

That I can stop being so angry, resentful, hopeless and I excited about what the future holds

That I’ll fail

Because I have never enjoyed reading. It is super hard for me to focus. I’ve neglected to take a hard look at myself because I don’t want to acknowledge what I will see. My hope is that I’ll find a groove and will get lost my rebuild. For when I start a project, I am good when I get into a groove and I simply want to bury my head in it until it’s accomplished

I hope I am. I have been asked to leave my home and have no contact with my family. I am orphaned and homeless.

I do not know. Accountability? Consequences that are spelled out?

As my wife puts it, it will be essential for me to recognize my “triggers”. As I was driving this morning, a song came in and I realized my mind switched directly to what has taken me from my family. My hope is that I find these triggers and eliminate them so that My focus is not redirected away from my uplifting priorities

I am not. I have attended step meetings since 2009. I've worked the steps with a sponsor before. I have had a really hard time letting go of the expectation that after I've done enough work I should be good to live a "normal" life. Having fallen back into my addictive behaviors over and over I feel defeated and stubborn, not humble. I'm not happy right now and I know the steps have been a good influence in the past. Trying to find my motivation again.

I rebuild some self confidence and find my willingness to submit my will to a higher authority and start making and keeping committments again.

I'll burnout, I'll stop, I'll start thinking "I've got this" and let my guard down. I'm afraid I'll be asked to do more than I am willing to do. I'm afraid I will be unwilling to submit and find peach and freedom in submitting.

Having a course like this I hope will help me be more consistent. I haven't been willing to be consistent for a long time now and I have hope that some structure will help me.

Not really. I want to. I'm stuck in this thinking that I've tried it, it helped, but it was too hard to sustain for a long period of time. That by submitting my will to the group was too much of a committment and that I should be able to find a better balance of turning my will to God without all the meetings so I can have more time to spend with my family or other activities that develop me as a person. I'm tired of going to meetings without obtaining long term sobriety.

I'm not sure right now. It might not be different. But I'm going to try and get to this course daily and see what happens

Not sure yet either. I feel burned out and unwilling to leave anything behind right now. But I'm here, right now, trying and thats all i can commit to today

Yes, when I consider the outcomes I hope to achieve and the internal growth I hope to experience. When I think about it in the aggregate, I feel overwhelmed at the thought of daily recovery work…so I try to focus on one dat at a time.

I hope to grow to become more like my Savior. I need to let go of any concrete achievable (I think) and focus instead on the hope of gradual daily improvement, of being more capable of managing my stressors in positive ways and finding more joy in life.

I’m afraid I’ll fail to follow through with the step work.

I’m hoping the fact that there’s a regular cost I’m paying will motivate me to take advantage of the product. I’m hoping the steps will be presented in small enough bites that I’ll be able to work on it regularly. I fear that I’ll make excuses and won’t get too it regularly.

Yes. It’s scary and there’s a fear of losing control in there. But I’m confident that it’s the right way forward and I believe that each step will be one that I’m able to take, even if I can’t take them all in a single leap. And there’s nothing particularly unique about now. It’s just the next step in the gradual process of growth I’ve been taking.

I’ll be using this curriculum and doing step work on a regular basis and I’ll be working regularly with a sponsor

My fear that I’ll give up. My discomfort about acknowledging my weaknesses and need to improve. My fear that I’ll be perceived as less than. My anxiety about making true connection with others.

No because I’ve gone through them before. I no longer believe in the religion of my birth and have strong resentment against it. I cannot leave because of my family. However, I have seen the benefits of the steps. I see that I am naturally very self centered and materialistic. I don’t want to be like this. I don’t like how porn makes me feel and want it out of my life.

I want to be done with pornography

The only thing negative that I fear is being publicly labeled as a sex addict

I want to save my marriage. This is the best way for me to do it.

I can’t continue on this current path. My marriage is already strained by the loss of faith. I don’t want to live with contempt for my wife. I don’t want to abandon my children.

I am paying money to work the steps

I am willing to leave behind my selfish will. I am willing to be teachable

Yes and no. I have failed so many times that I do t really have a confidence in myself to sustain sobriety

I hope that I come to realize that I am able and willing to leave the addiction behind once and for all.

I am not the type of person who is good at systematically doing things over and over

I don't know I need to but I don't feel worthy of his love or forgiveness

I will not let distractions and temptation allow me to rationalize not working the program

I am willing to leave behind all the secrecy and the fear of failure or being found out.

Yes and no. I feel deep inside that working the steps is the solution that I have been looking for for pretty much my whole life to find out who I really am, what I really like, etc. I get the feeling that learning to live in recovery will be one of the biggest keys to reaching my potential. I was/am living a false life and had created a version of myself that I thought other people wanted and that prevented me from ever knowing who I really was, what I needed to be happy, etc. I look forward to peeling back that facade, connecting with my real self, and tapping into the power of my spirit. It is also scary because I realize I will have to leave behind the things that have allowed me to survive all these years and meet my own needs since they weren't being met by my parents/family and I didn't know how to meet them in a healthy way. I also recognize that I will have to become a new person and that growth/change will hurt. I also know that I will have to look at things that I don't want to look at so that I can heal. I also know that I will have to talk to others about things that I never thought I would share with anyone else. I also know that I might have to reach out to people that I never wanted to speak to again.

I hope that I connect to my real self and get to know myself. I hope to become a self-aware, genuine person that is easily able to connect with others. I hope to unlock my full potential. I hope to live a life filled with fulfillment and connection. I hope to learn to love myself and to forgive myself so that I can love and forgive others. I hope to remove the divider that has been keeping me from deepening my relationship with God and fully enjoying the companionship of the Holy Ghost. I hope to regain the level of diligence, commitment, and strength that I enjoyed on my mission but to pair with that authenticity.

I am afraid that I might not be brave enough to be vulnerable. I am afraid that I might not be able to eliminate shame and denial from my life. I am afraid that I might not be able to change the default fear and shame-based responses that have become second nature to me at this point. I am afraid that I might have to face buried resentment and anger. I am afraid that admitting that I am an addict might change the way that I and others view me. I am afraid to tell anyone that I know that I am an addict.

I feel like it will work for me becuase it has worked for so many others in the past. I feel like it will work for me because it is essentially a tried and true way to access the power of the Atonement to redeem and enable. It is a deep, thourough process to fully repent and show God a broken heart and contrite spirit so that He can heal and make weak things become strong. I feel it will work for me because working recovery is synonymous in my mind to repenting and changing daily.

Yes, I am. Because in order for me to be that father and husband that I need to be for my wife and 2 children, I have to change. My hard heart has kept me from acheiving the success that God has promised me. My self-loathing and self-harming behavior has made me impossible to connect with and be around and has left me with no friends and no meaningful relationships outside of my wife. I have come to the realization that I can't overcome my attachement disorder and eliminate my sinful behavior without God's help, mercy, and grace. I have not been able to be present and enjoy life because I am always looking to escape. I must learn to be present and to enjoy life and a move from victim to creator.

I have support from my wife, my therapist, my future sponsor, and my future group. I also have tools and resources to help me follow a proven process instead of depending only upon my own willpower. I have come to understand that underlying cause of all my issues is my addiction. I have started and will continue to learn about and understand the nature of my problem and this will allow me to combat it effectively. I know that God will honor my honest efforts and make up the difference between my best effort and what is required.

I am willing to leave behind whatever my higher power requires me to leave behind in order for Him to make me whole again. Whatever He requires, I can do since I realize that He will do the rest.

Yes I'm looking forward to working the steps all the way through and in a timely manner. I'm looking forward to it because my life is unmanageable without my wife and i need to step up or she will be done with me.

I hope that I can live recovery and my wife will stay married to me.

That i might fall back into a lazy routine where i do the steps half ass.

It will work for me, I have read and journaled everyday. The steps are a constant reminder of what I'm trying to achieve.

Yes I'm ready, it'll be scary since I don't have a good relationship with God. Because I want this to be my rock bottom, I'm tired of hiding secrets and living a double life. I want what I already have and want it to stay that way just changing me.

Practicing honest sobriety and living real recovery.

Everything that is holding me back, Whatever I need to let go of I will because I want to be better and so far what I have be doing isn't working so I need to try something else.

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Overall I would say yes, I am. I know the power that comes into my life when I work recovery and I like the person I become. I have fears that I won't work them well enough and fears that I will just relapse somewhere in step 1-3 and feel like it's not working. I need to surrender those fears.

Sobriety, for one, But also I hope I begin to love and trust myself, and see myself as a son of God, not as a broken addict. I am a sexaholic, WORTHY of recovery. I hope to feel joy about myself and my trajectory.

I am afraid of relapse. I am afraid that I won't work the steps consistently. I am afraid of failure. I am afraid that I will get into this program of recovery and relapse and consider it another failure.

I have done this in the past and it was effective. It keeps recovery top of mind and a high priority. Working steps each day means facing this addiction each day instead of facing it only when I am tempted or triggered. It's easy to focus on it then because it's in my face. But when it's dormant, that's when it's tough. Daily step work tackles this.

I sure hope so. Why now, because I can't stop. Life has had so many ups and downs the past year and I have gone to my addiction again, and again, and again. It seems to be getting more frequent and more aggressive in content I seek after. I do not want this at all, and yet I continue in it. It is an addiction. Please God take it as I give it up.

Daily step work. Regular work with sponsor. Regular meeting attendance.
Tighter boundaries with media. Daily calls.

Late night Twitch.
Blaming others, hating myself.
My obsession with personal time - being willing to give up time for recovery.

Yes and no. I have been avoiding and struggling with doing a step 4. I am encouraged by this program that will help me to get through the steps by working on it one small step at a time.

I hope that I find freedom and the ability to live without the bonding effect of addiction.

I am afraid that I will have to face some people and situations that I have not wanted to face.

I feel like I have some teeth here because I am paying for the service. I don't mind paying because of what SAL has done for and continues to do. I also think it will be more effective. I care for plants and they thrive when they get little bits of water every day or other day and not when I water them once a week.

Yes, I have been in that process for a while but have struggled to take the steps.

I have changed every time I attempt to engage in the steps. My efforts have coalesced more and more and it will some day precipitate if I am persistent.

I am willing to leave behind comfortability.

Yes I’m looking forward to getting help in my recovery.

I hope to be able to build a better understanding on my addiction and gain some tools in order to fight it.

I’m afraid that regular life will crowd out my recovery process at some point in the not too distant future and that I will fall back into some of the same unhealthy behaviors that I’ve been pre-programmed into.

Developing the habit and being consistent will work for me as I focus really hard during the first 21 days.

I am ready and I know that being intentional in the spiritual aspect of my recovery is essential towards having continued victory over my addictions.

More focused effort on the step work, scripture study and prayer. Just attending a meeting each week and listening to a few podcasts isn’t enough for me.

I’m willing to leave behind the laziness or lack of being committed to work my recovery each day.

I am as a matter of fact. I’ve realized the over the last few years that I have become lost in my mind.

I get a piece back in my head that gives me peace. And the ability to open up emotionally

That my life will change as I currently know it even thou I’m putting in this work

Hopefully it will slow me down and face my addiction and be able to discuss and recover

I am getting there to let go but supposedly God above loves each and everyone of us unconditionally. I feel it up to us to forgive ourselves when we pass on to that happy hunting ground

I’ll have tools in my tool box that I’ve never had before

Secrets, sneaking around

I am on the fence. I have worked a program in the past that used a modified version of the 12 steps. It was a helpful tool. I spent 7 years in the program, but later relapsed. I attended a clinician lead program similar to the 12 step outline.

I am hoping that the 12-step and help me cement the recovery I have enjoyed over the last 9 months. I am hoping that I can continue to address residual behavioral shortcomings like co-dependency.

I am not able to apply the SA tools to continue in recovery and address new issues that are not sexual in nature.

I am excited thinking that a daily assignment will keep me focused. I have not to this point experienced a program with a daily or near daily task list.

Ready and willing

More open to doing the work actively and not in a passive state of mind.

I have not considered it. I am willing to be open minded as I identify what "I am willing to leave behind"

Yes, I am looking forward to feeling joy and happiness again. I am looking forward to feeling free from shame and hypocrisy.

I hope to be more honest about my triggers and accountable about working the steps.

I am afraid of being judge for my addiction from people that don't understand addiction.

I feel working the Steps on a day to day basis will help me be more aware of my emotions and my old bad reactions to triggers.

Yes, I am ready to let go of my addiction and turn my will over completely to God and Christ, because I want to feel free and full joy and peace; I want to be a better example to my kids.

My effort to be more consisten and diligent as I work the steps and my effort to really focus on my lust triggers and work towards anger, pride and resentment.

I am willing to leave behind TV shows and social media.

Work on my character weaknesses

Get rid of guilt, shame, i want to be trusted again

I will fail again

I need to keep focus, on a daily basis
I tried to control my negative thoughts and feelings, but they continued to reappear

Yes, I am ready to admit my need for the redeeming and transformation power of the higher power

Work on my addiction every day

Old patterns and trigger points

I’m looking forward to working the steps. This is an addiction that has effected me since childhood and may have damaged my marriage and family beyond repair. Even if that is the case I don’t want to live the second half of my life like this. I am afraid of how honest I need to be and how much pain it will bring up and just how hard it will be to stay vigilant. I’ll need a lot of help especially if I can’t do it surrounded by my family.

That I get honest about what my wounds and triggers are. Begin to change my brain chemistry. Stop acting out of my wounds. Learn true Godly intimacy with my wife.

That in spite of active recovery that my marriage is beyond saving.

Enforced discipline! It keeps the problem of my addiction and it’s solution in the front of my brain and lifestyle.

Yes! The cards are out on the table with my wife. And there is simply no pathway to restoring our marital issues without me getting into a full throttle long term recovery to so sobriety.

This is the first time I have looked at lust and porn as more than a sin. Saying the words addiction and recovery are oddly enough heavier. And it’s one of the few times Jesus plus something else makes sense.

The obvious thing is porn and masterbation. The hardest part leaving behind the fear of being honest with my wife. The shame of failing. The fear of being abandoned because I fail and have hurt her are real. Leaving behind my pride in thinking I can “manage” this may creep in and I don’t want that. Watching my children cry when I explained why my wife Dorothy asked me to leave is a searing pain that plays itself over and over again. I want all of our pain to have redemptive outcome one day.

No really, but it's because I've done this type of thing for years and I'm a little tired of working steps. However, I also recognize the need for change, and understand that what I've been doing hasn't been working.

I hope to see myself differently and to build more self-control in my life. I want to forsake my sins, I hope these steps will help me to do that.

That I will continue to have issues with slips. That I will do great for a few days or weeks, and then slip. And with my problems with perfectionism, a slip often times leads me to feeling like all my progress is lost and I need to start over.

I think it will work because it will help this to remain apart of my lifestyle. I want to be able to leave my addictions behind me forever and wish it was that simple, but I do have an addition and it won't go away on its own, so a daily resource to work on it seems reasonable.

I feel like I am. I see so many blessings in my life, and so many more that are "waiting" for me to get this under control. I want out, I want to move forward. I want this to be the time I can let go.

Faith. Faith in myself, and Heavenly Father that there is more out there for me. Faith that I can change, I just need to be consistent and patient.

I've thought about this a lot and I know it's going to mean making some changes. I'm feeling more and more open all the time to leaving things behind. But the biggest thing I need to leave behind is the feelings that it's NOT ok for me to make a mistake or not know what to do next. Because it IS ok, and I need to understand that. I don't need to be perfect!