I am.
I want to really dig into my emotions and better understand the narratives I've been running in my head for potentially my entire life.
I want to get clear on my thoughts about Becky, Caleb, the other kids, work, and life.
I look forward to making this a "habit" instead of a once in awhile endeavor.
That I learn how to better be emotionally healthy.
That I learn how to "practice these principles in all my affairs."
That I improve my relationship with Becky and with Caleb and with my kids.
That I make "progress, not perfection."
That Step work is one of the ways I improve my relationship with God.
That I will let other things get in the way.
That I won't make this the top priority for my day/life.
That I will let my narratives overpower my intentions to be emotionally healthy.
That I won't know what to do with many of the emotions I'm feeling.
It will definitely help.
It helps me clear my mind.
It gets me self-assessing.
It helps me connect with God.
It helps me take that part of my life seriously and prioritize.
Yes, for sure.
This is deeper than "the addiction."
This is my emotional health, which is the underlying cause of my addiction.
This is the next step in my recovery journey.
This is how I can live a happy and complete life - one connected to God, my closest contacts (Becky and the kids and my parents) and others.
I look forward to taking these next steps.
I will be committed.
I will create a better schedule on WHEN and HOW I plan to work my steps.
I will monitor my progress.
I will be accountable to my sponsor with my Step work.
I work my Steps at either 5:30 a.m. or 7:30 a.m. every day.
I wake up, put on some clothes, and head to my office for Step Work.
I read from recovery literature.
I write out answers to Step work.
I add additional thoughts/feelings in my journal.
I report my Step work activity to my sponsor.
At the end of each night, I leave my computer on to just the SAL12Step site for the next day's work.
This is my plan.
New routine.
New accountability.
New way of digging into my emotions.
New way of looking at and exploring narratives.
I'm not really looking forward or not looking forward to working the steps. I have worked them before.
I hope that I will eventually be free. That is what I want, I want to be free.
I'm afraid I will never get out of my addiction.
I don't know. I have seen it work in the past but I also know that I am woefully inconsistent.
I don't know. I say that I am, but I have not done it so far.
I don't know.
I don't know.
Yes. I want to recover from my powerlessness over lust and am seeking help
My hope is that I am able to detach from the feelings of shame and guilt that more or less got me into the addiction in the first place
I have some reticence over how anonymous this is, but no fear over the results of what may come from doing the work
It should as it is a habit forming behavior when approached consistently
Yes. It nearly cost me my marriage, and I will be working to rebuild that trust for many years as a result
This is the first real action for me to address the problem. Cutting the behavior patterns out worked for a time but I want to do more than reinforce a sheer will effort
Pornography in all forms.
