Yes and no. I have failed so many times that I do t really have a confidence in myself to sustain sobriety

I hope that I come to realize that I am able and willing to leave the addiction behind once and for all.

I am not the type of person who is good at systematically doing things over and over

I don't know I need to but I don't feel worthy of his love or forgiveness

I will not let distractions and temptation allow me to rationalize not working the program

I am willing to leave behind all the secrecy and the fear of failure or being found out.

Yes and no. I feel deep inside that working the steps is the solution that I have been looking for for pretty much my whole life to find out who I really am, what I really like, etc. I get the feeling that learning to live in recovery will be one of the biggest keys to reaching my potential. I was/am living a false life and had created a version of myself that I thought other people wanted and that prevented me from ever knowing who I really was, what I needed to be happy, etc. I look forward to peeling back that facade, connecting with my real self, and tapping into the power of my spirit. It is also scary because I realize I will have to leave behind the things that have allowed me to survive all these years and meet my own needs since they weren't being met by my parents/family and I didn't know how to meet them in a healthy way. I also recognize that I will have to become a new person and that growth/change will hurt. I also know that I will have to look at things that I don't want to look at so that I can heal. I also know that I will have to talk to others about things that I never thought I would share with anyone else. I also know that I might have to reach out to people that I never wanted to speak to again.

I hope that I connect to my real self and get to know myself. I hope to become a self-aware, genuine person that is easily able to connect with others. I hope to unlock my full potential. I hope to live a life filled with fulfillment and connection. I hope to learn to love myself and to forgive myself so that I can love and forgive others. I hope to remove the divider that has been keeping me from deepening my relationship with God and fully enjoying the companionship of the Holy Ghost. I hope to regain the level of diligence, commitment, and strength that I enjoyed on my mission but to pair with that authenticity.

I am afraid that I might not be brave enough to be vulnerable. I am afraid that I might not be able to eliminate shame and denial from my life. I am afraid that I might not be able to change the default fear and shame-based responses that have become second nature to me at this point. I am afraid that I might have to face buried resentment and anger. I am afraid that admitting that I am an addict might change the way that I and others view me. I am afraid to tell anyone that I know that I am an addict.

I feel like it will work for me becuase it has worked for so many others in the past. I feel like it will work for me because it is essentially a tried and true way to access the power of the Atonement to redeem and enable. It is a deep, thourough process to fully repent and show God a broken heart and contrite spirit so that He can heal and make weak things become strong. I feel it will work for me because working recovery is synonymous in my mind to repenting and changing daily.

Yes, I am. Because in order for me to be that father and husband that I need to be for my wife and 2 children, I have to change. My hard heart has kept me from acheiving the success that God has promised me. My self-loathing and self-harming behavior has made me impossible to connect with and be around and has left me with no friends and no meaningful relationships outside of my wife. I have come to the realization that I can't overcome my attachement disorder and eliminate my sinful behavior without God's help, mercy, and grace. I have not been able to be present and enjoy life because I am always looking to escape. I must learn to be present and to enjoy life and a move from victim to creator.

I have support from my wife, my therapist, my future sponsor, and my future group. I also have tools and resources to help me follow a proven process instead of depending only upon my own willpower. I have come to understand that underlying cause of all my issues is my addiction. I have started and will continue to learn about and understand the nature of my problem and this will allow me to combat it effectively. I know that God will honor my honest efforts and make up the difference between my best effort and what is required.

I am willing to leave behind whatever my higher power requires me to leave behind in order for Him to make me whole again. Whatever He requires, I can do since I realize that He will do the rest.

Yes I'm looking forward to working the steps all the way through and in a timely manner. I'm looking forward to it because my life is unmanageable without my wife and i need to step up or she will be done with me.

I hope that I can live recovery and my wife will stay married to me.

That i might fall back into a lazy routine where i do the steps half ass.

It will work for me, I have read and journaled everyday. The steps are a constant reminder of what I'm trying to achieve.

Yes I'm ready, it'll be scary since I don't have a good relationship with God. Because I want this to be my rock bottom, I'm tired of hiding secrets and living a double life. I want what I already have and want it to stay that way just changing me.

Practicing honest sobriety and living real recovery.

Everything that is holding me back, Whatever I need to let go of I will because I want to be better and so far what I have be doing isn't working so I need to try something else.

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Overall I would say yes, I am. I know the power that comes into my life when I work recovery and I like the person I become. I have fears that I won't work them well enough and fears that I will just relapse somewhere in step 1-3 and feel like it's not working. I need to surrender those fears.

Sobriety, for one, But also I hope I begin to love and trust myself, and see myself as a son of God, not as a broken addict. I am a sexaholic, WORTHY of recovery. I hope to feel joy about myself and my trajectory.

I am afraid of relapse. I am afraid that I won't work the steps consistently. I am afraid of failure. I am afraid that I will get into this program of recovery and relapse and consider it another failure.

I have done this in the past and it was effective. It keeps recovery top of mind and a high priority. Working steps each day means facing this addiction each day instead of facing it only when I am tempted or triggered. It's easy to focus on it then because it's in my face. But when it's dormant, that's when it's tough. Daily step work tackles this.

I sure hope so. Why now, because I can't stop. Life has had so many ups and downs the past year and I have gone to my addiction again, and again, and again. It seems to be getting more frequent and more aggressive in content I seek after. I do not want this at all, and yet I continue in it. It is an addiction. Please God take it as I give it up.

Daily step work. Regular work with sponsor. Regular meeting attendance.
Tighter boundaries with media. Daily calls.

Late night Twitch.
Blaming others, hating myself.
My obsession with personal time - being willing to give up time for recovery.

Yes and no. I have been avoiding and struggling with doing a step 4. I am encouraged by this program that will help me to get through the steps by working on it one small step at a time.

I hope that I find freedom and the ability to live without the bonding effect of addiction.

I am afraid that I will have to face some people and situations that I have not wanted to face.

I feel like I have some teeth here because I am paying for the service. I don't mind paying because of what SAL has done for and continues to do. I also think it will be more effective. I care for plants and they thrive when they get little bits of water every day or other day and not when I water them once a week.

Yes, I have been in that process for a while but have struggled to take the steps.

I have changed every time I attempt to engage in the steps. My efforts have coalesced more and more and it will some day precipitate if I am persistent.

I am willing to leave behind comfortability.

Yes I’m looking forward to getting help in my recovery.

I hope to be able to build a better understanding on my addiction and gain some tools in order to fight it.

I’m afraid that regular life will crowd out my recovery process at some point in the not too distant future and that I will fall back into some of the same unhealthy behaviors that I’ve been pre-programmed into.

Developing the habit and being consistent will work for me as I focus really hard during the first 21 days.

I am ready and I know that being intentional in the spiritual aspect of my recovery is essential towards having continued victory over my addictions.

More focused effort on the step work, scripture study and prayer. Just attending a meeting each week and listening to a few podcasts isn’t enough for me.

I’m willing to leave behind the laziness or lack of being committed to work my recovery each day.

I am as a matter of fact. I’ve realized the over the last few years that I have become lost in my mind.

I get a piece back in my head that gives me peace. And the ability to open up emotionally

That my life will change as I currently know it even thou I’m putting in this work

Hopefully it will slow me down and face my addiction and be able to discuss and recover

I am getting there to let go but supposedly God above loves each and everyone of us unconditionally. I feel it up to us to forgive ourselves when we pass on to that happy hunting ground

I’ll have tools in my tool box that I’ve never had before

Secrets, sneaking around

I am on the fence. I have worked a program in the past that used a modified version of the 12 steps. It was a helpful tool. I spent 7 years in the program, but later relapsed. I attended a clinician lead program similar to the 12 step outline.

I am hoping that the 12-step and help me cement the recovery I have enjoyed over the last 9 months. I am hoping that I can continue to address residual behavioral shortcomings like co-dependency.

I am not able to apply the SA tools to continue in recovery and address new issues that are not sexual in nature.

I am excited thinking that a daily assignment will keep me focused. I have not to this point experienced a program with a daily or near daily task list.

Ready and willing

More open to doing the work actively and not in a passive state of mind.

I have not considered it. I am willing to be open minded as I identify what "I am willing to leave behind"

Yes, I am looking forward to feeling joy and happiness again. I am looking forward to feeling free from shame and hypocrisy.

I hope to be more honest about my triggers and accountable about working the steps.

I am afraid of being judge for my addiction from people that don't understand addiction.

I feel working the Steps on a day to day basis will help me be more aware of my emotions and my old bad reactions to triggers.

Yes, I am ready to let go of my addiction and turn my will over completely to God and Christ, because I want to feel free and full joy and peace; I want to be a better example to my kids.

My effort to be more consisten and diligent as I work the steps and my effort to really focus on my lust triggers and work towards anger, pride and resentment.

I am willing to leave behind TV shows and social media.

Work on my character weaknesses

Get rid of guilt, shame, i want to be trusted again

I will fail again

I need to keep focus, on a daily basis
I tried to control my negative thoughts and feelings, but they continued to reappear

Yes, I am ready to admit my need for the redeeming and transformation power of the higher power

Work on my addiction every day

Old patterns and trigger points

I’m looking forward to working the steps. This is an addiction that has effected me since childhood and may have damaged my marriage and family beyond repair. Even if that is the case I don’t want to live the second half of my life like this. I am afraid of how honest I need to be and how much pain it will bring up and just how hard it will be to stay vigilant. I’ll need a lot of help especially if I can’t do it surrounded by my family.

That I get honest about what my wounds and triggers are. Begin to change my brain chemistry. Stop acting out of my wounds. Learn true Godly intimacy with my wife.

That in spite of active recovery that my marriage is beyond saving.

Enforced discipline! It keeps the problem of my addiction and it’s solution in the front of my brain and lifestyle.

Yes! The cards are out on the table with my wife. And there is simply no pathway to restoring our marital issues without me getting into a full throttle long term recovery to so sobriety.

This is the first time I have looked at lust and porn as more than a sin. Saying the words addiction and recovery are oddly enough heavier. And it’s one of the few times Jesus plus something else makes sense.

The obvious thing is porn and masterbation. The hardest part leaving behind the fear of being honest with my wife. The shame of failing. The fear of being abandoned because I fail and have hurt her are real. Leaving behind my pride in thinking I can “manage” this may creep in and I don’t want that. Watching my children cry when I explained why my wife Dorothy asked me to leave is a searing pain that plays itself over and over again. I want all of our pain to have redemptive outcome one day.

No really, but it's because I've done this type of thing for years and I'm a little tired of working steps. However, I also recognize the need for change, and understand that what I've been doing hasn't been working.

I hope to see myself differently and to build more self-control in my life. I want to forsake my sins, I hope these steps will help me to do that.

That I will continue to have issues with slips. That I will do great for a few days or weeks, and then slip. And with my problems with perfectionism, a slip often times leads me to feeling like all my progress is lost and I need to start over.

I think it will work because it will help this to remain apart of my lifestyle. I want to be able to leave my addictions behind me forever and wish it was that simple, but I do have an addition and it won't go away on its own, so a daily resource to work on it seems reasonable.

I feel like I am. I see so many blessings in my life, and so many more that are "waiting" for me to get this under control. I want out, I want to move forward. I want this to be the time I can let go.

Faith. Faith in myself, and Heavenly Father that there is more out there for me. Faith that I can change, I just need to be consistent and patient.

I've thought about this a lot and I know it's going to mean making some changes. I'm feeling more and more open all the time to leaving things behind. But the biggest thing I need to leave behind is the feelings that it's NOT ok for me to make a mistake or not know what to do next. Because it IS ok, and I need to understand that. I don't need to be perfect!

Yes and no. I have a fear of failure

A change of heart and desire

Fail

Keeps me focused on a daily basis on what’s really important

I honestly don’t feel ready mentally but I know this is a step in the right direction and I want to get to that point

Consistency

Anything

Yes i am looking forward to working the steps because i want to find peace not only for myself but for my wife. I feel good about my sobriety but i know i haven’t been as good at working the steps consistently and i want that consistency in my life.

I hope that i gain peace and freedom from the pain of my past

I dont feel fear about this. I know i need to do it. I guess having to reach out and share with people is scary.

I feel like it will work for me to give me a constant reminder each day.

Yes, i have been. My biggest fear of the higher power was communication about it with my wife. But we have moved past that and I’m excited to share it more.

Having a daily structure will be nice to keep it easy to work the steps and have a daily plan.

I will make sure that I make the time available to do step work each day.

I am hoping this program will help me work the steps more completely

I hope to gain greater understanding and awareness

I've been at this for a year and want to really turn this over to God.

Yes, I realize I have a problem that is out of my control. I feel this addiction affecting many other aspects of my life and I'm sick of feeling that this defines me as a person and I am sick of living in fear that other people will find out.

I hope I will be able to find healing from my past behavior and find the necessary tools to change myself for the better.

I am afraid that it won't work

Part of me feels like this isnt enough motivation.

Yes, I am ready to move on to another part of my life. I know that there is power up above to help overcome difficulties and I need that power.

This time I will work day to day and I will find someone to help me as a sponsor.

I am willing to leave my negative behavior that is poisoning my life.

No. I am worried about the effort that it will take and whether or not I will be able to do them well. I am worried that my wife leave me if I fail the steps. I am at the same time, slightly hopeful that my future can be better than the mess I've made.

I hope that my mind will become stronger and that I will cultivate a better sense of self apart from unhealthy coping techniques. I hope that I will be able to build trust with my wife. I hope that I will know God more and develop peace.

I am afraid that I will fail. I am afraid that I will sabotage myself with pride and selfishness.

I've messed up my life so much. I have to try/struggle on a daily basis in order to salvage my life.

Yes, as much as I can know my own mind right now. I will prove (or disprove) it to myself through my actions. God has put so much effort into saving my life and my marriage. I've rejected His help, and that of my wife, for so long that I am afraid that I only have one chance left.

People know now what I've done. My wife knows. There is nowhere left for me to hide. My therapist knows and can better tailor our sessions based on my honest state.

I'm willing to leave entitlement to myself, my actions, and my heart and mind. I'm willing to leave ease that comes from having the internet on my phone. I'm willing to leave my desire to hide. I know that there will be struggle and resistance in the process, but I have left myself no other choice but to do this the right way.

Yes. I want a healthy life!

Clarity.

It might be hard.

Will. This will help me be consistent.

Yes. I’ve been working the program.

Using the curriculum.

News that can be triggering.

Yes. I have worked them before, but am ready to go through them again and find things I didn't fully embrace or handle well the first time.

Get back to full sobriety and be better at progressive victory over lust.

That I will lose steam. I recognize in myself a certain laziness on life changes and spiritual changes. In those areas I tend to want to coast.

I know when I am diligent about keeping my bottom lines, I do OK. They are a safety net.
Just reading the books isn't enough. I think I really have to write and work.

Yes. Even though I have tried so many times, I am going to try again. I hope that my attitude can stay positive as I look to having a life that isn't secretly in constant search and wanting for lust and lust hits.

I'm coming into the step work having gone through them before and a relapse after 3 years of sobriety, which is hard to swallow.
I hope to be more deeply committed this time. To reach out to others in the program more. To be more sincere in my recovery.

I will leave behind what feels like my constant yearning for lust and sex.
Recognize that my relationship with my wife in the terms of friendship is wonderful and so much better than most people achieve in their whole life.

I am. I know my time is limited, but I waste plenty of it so there is definitely room for this step work. I want to be working more active step work throughout each week instead of showing up to meetings and sadly saying, "I haven't worked any steps this week." I feel like I've been in a slump lately and I want to get out of it. While I've been abstinent for over 2 years now, that doesn't mean anything if I'm not actively working recovery. This has got to change now, otherwise I will fall victim to lust again.

I hope to have deeper insight into my inner "dis-ease". I want to discover my character defects and work with my higher power to address them and have progressive victory over them and lust. I hope to become closer to my Savior.

I fear being controlled. I don't ever want to feel like I am being forced to do something, such as change. But I know I can surrender my will into His hands and He will do what's right for me. I also fear being weak and how working these steps at first can seem blurry between humility and being weak. Regardless, I will bend my knee at His altar and know He wants me to become stronger than I am by working these steps. Only He can make me my best.

As I work it, it works for me. It's that simple. As I focus on daily recovery and put in the work and effort, I will naturally change. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

Yes. I started this journey formally on 2/5/2019 and I don't intend to stop. There have been times along the way where my dedication has waned, but I know that besides yesterday, today is the best time to start taking a more intentional and active role in my recovery work. One of the reasons I'm starting now is because I recently stopped attending my group counseling sessions, which I've been attending for over a year. They're expensive and I feel like I'm getting diminishing returns from the sessions and the group. I know I could have contributed more, but I feel like doing this program will be more active and consistent day to day on my part instead of a weekly phone call. If I'm going to drop some form of recovery from my life, I need to add in something better. I've plateaued in my recover efforts and I need to change things up and do something different that will challenge me. I have too many stresses in my life to not be working recovery for myself.

I am committing to doing some of this work every day. No matter what. It's time to make this a real daily habit. I don't need to spend an hour everyday to achieve this...just 10-15 minutes (or more if I want). That way recovery work won't seem so insurmountable.

I am willing to leave behind going to bed later so that I can wake up earlier to meditate, journal, read, and work recovery.
I am willing to skip distractions and diversions like watching online videos in my quiet moments or downtime.
I am willing to stop wishing I had a different wife or life.
I am willing to leave my wanton desires and lusts, harmful thought patterns, and resentments behind.

Yes, I need them to stay sober and sane. A half hearted commitment won't work

Mighty change of heart, and the humility to keep going even after I get done sobriety

I'll drop off the map, stop doing the work, blow my boundaries

It's my daily bread, it's the amazing calculation of doing something small to accomplish something big.

Yes, everything I do on my own fails miserably, even this morning I got distracted by Facebook.

I have learned for myself that my own way will not work, I'll just flame out and fail again.

I am willing to leave behind my laziness and dishonesty.

I am looking forward to working the steps because I want to be able to overcome my addiction.

I hope that as I work the steps that I will gain a greater understanding of myself and why I turned to pornography in the first place. I also hope to gain the tools I need to help me recover from this plague.

I am afraid that I won't be able to sustain the effort necessary to recover.

I think the steps will work for me because there are others that have gone before me that have worked these steps and have achieved their own recovery. Doing the work daily will help me to maintain a measure of continuity.

Yes! The need I’ve had to actually work the steps and the ability to do so on my own while also trying to find and work with a sponsor, is high. This curriculum I think will help clearly guide the work needed for the steps

BETTER recovery! “Sober is not well” and I need to be well and happy!

Just the fear of dealing with my own inner workings and thoughts I know won’t be all fun or make me feel great in the moment.

I KNOW NOT working them doesn’t work because I’ve done plenty of NOT working the steps. I’ve seen it work for others and my ways clearly don’t work.

Yes! I’m done feeling like I have no power and no choice over my happiness

Putting in real work. More contacts with group members and proactively working the steps and finding that progressive victory one day at a time

Whatever it takes for myself to be happy and be a good example and make my family happy