Yes and no. On the one hand, I'm excited to have a structured program for working the 12 steps. I need that structure, and it will help me stay focused and motivated. On the other hand, I'm a little afraid to start this journey. I have too much evidence from my life of failing to keep commitments to myself and others. I have started many therapy programs before that I never stuck to. I worry this will just result in another failure. I hope this time will be different. I NEED this time to be different.

That I discover something that I never discovered before in all my years of therapy. That I get at the ROOT of my issues. That I find the keys to lasting, sustained change. And by "change", I don't just want to change my behavior (i.e. sobriety), I want to change my heart and my mind. I want to rewire my brain. I want to become a more loving, outward person. I want to become the best version of myself. I want to discover the person God intended me to be.

Multiple things.
For one thing, as I mentioned above, I'm afraid I will lose focus and fail to follow through - AGAIN. I'm afraid this will be yet another evidence that I'm a failure.

On the other hand, I'm afraid that even if I fully commit and dig in and do the work, that I'll find at the end of it that it didn't actually result in lasting change. I'm afraid that I'll discover that my problems are too deep to be fixed by this program. That would be evidence that I can never change.

I'm also afraid that, even if I am able to change my behavior, that it will feel like I'm "starving" for the rest of my life. I'm afraid the hunger, the craving, the lust will never go away, and therefore I will never be satisfied. I'm afraid that a life of sobriety will feel like giving up all delicious food and living off celery for the rest of my life. Like I will never be able to be satisfied. I fear that I will discover that sobriety really is less fulfilling than acting out.

On the one hand, I worry that a daily commitment might be too much for me. I already have a lot on my plate everyday. Can I realistically carve out time EVERY DAY to work on this?

On the other hand, I think that doing a little bit every day is likely to be more sustainable than doing big bursts on an infrequent basis. I HOPE that I can find a sustainable routine. Just enough each day to keep me moving forward. I also hope that such a daily pattern will actually be more effective at helping drive lasting change. I hope it will help me stay focused each day and prevent me from drifting too much.

Yes. I am SO TIRED of this still being in my life. I want to finally be done. I NEED to finally be done. I truly want to discover what life is like on the other side. A consecrated life. A life on the "covenant path." A life of freedom. And (hopefully) a life of JOY. That is the promise of the Atonement. I want to discover that it is true for my life.

1- Daily routines. Committing to do a little bit every day, and establishing a routine/schedule that will make that possible.
2- Daily accountability. Checking in/reporting to my accountability partners.
3- Open/honest communication with my wife, Brooke.
4- Weekly accountability (via group meetings and reports to my therapist, bishop, and accountability partner).

1- Letting Work be the most important thing. I'm willing to do my recovery work BEFORE I do work. I'm also willing to shut things down consistently at the end of the day to be home with family and follow my routines. That means I need to be willing to leave things undone. I need to be okay with doing just "enough".
2- Dishonesty. Specifically, I want to get to a place where I no longer am hiding ANYTHING from Brooke. I want to have a proactively open, honest relationship.
3- Diversions/distractions. Anything that keeps me from doing this work. Specifically: (a) Work [as stated above]; (b) Staying up late; (c) Any other hobby/pastime or diversion that is taking up too much time.
4- CONVENIENCE. I'm willing to sacrifice certain "freedoms" that "normal people" are able to enjoy in order to maintain my bottom lines. For example: (a) Going in stores alone; (b) browsers/apps/access on my phone or computer; (c) Forms of entertainment that others might be able to enjoy [YouTube, etc.]

Yes, it’s been a whirlwind realizing what I’ve done and coming to grips with.

To recalibrate my mental cognitive awareness and to be able to become who I need to.

I fix myself and lose my bride.

It will work it’s going to take planning and adjusting to be successful

Yes, it is the only way that I’m going to overcome this. It’s time for me to become better.

I truly want to stop hurting myself and my wife. I’ve hated myself for awhile and it’s all came out and it’s a chance for a new me.

I’ve already shutoff all social media on my phone as my phone holds the triggers for me. When my wife triggers me having the social media on my phone allowed me to slip.

Yes. My recovery from this addiction is the most important thing in my life.

A strengthening of my connection with God and to my wife.

I have nothing to lose.

It will work for me because it will become a habit of working steps everyday and to keep my recovery in my mind throughout the day.

Due to my situation I have found that all I can do is surrender my life to God.

I've been going to meetings for 8 months but have never really worked the steps. I am determined to do everything for my recovery

I will leave behind pornagraphy, masterbation, and lust. I will also create new habit to cope with the feelings that drive me to those actions.

Yes, I am looking forward to working the steps even if it forces me out of my comfort zone in some situations.

I am able to heal and reframe my mind and free myself of this addiction.

Having to open closed doors in terms of making amends.

I need structure and attainable daily goals to keep me invested.

I’m not ready. It’s been my crutch for the longest. But it is the right thing to do.

I will not intentionally look for loop holes and shortcuts.

Outlets that trigger me into watching or participating in my addiction. Social media, internet, etc. Avoiding toxic acquaintances that can influence me into relapsing.

yes, kind of, maybe.

I'm hopefull that breaking things down into smaller pieces will help me keep some daily consistency.

I'm afraid I won't see progress or will see some and then relapse and lose hope.

hope it will help with daily (small step) consistency

I want to, but am not sure.

I know it's possible (previous sobriety), and it's a different program. But I do need to find a sponsor.

hopefully pride & shame.

yes i am looking forward to it. i want to change the way i am as a person

i fundamentally change the way i approach life

failure. its always failure and rejection

i have to try it, i have tried other things and have not achieved serenity

i am ready. because i am 41 and life is short.

accountability and transparency

my addiction and the need for it.

Well lets say I'm feeling a little mroe comfortable than I have in the past, but still not that comfortable. I'm uncomfortable talking to people normally, let alone about things I've done wrong and have tried to keep hidden. On the other hand I know being closer to God is a higher way of life and will be better all around.

I hope I become really close to God. I help some bad things about me melt away. I hope I become aware of flaws and defects I'm ignorant of right now. I hope I learn how to pray powerfully. I hope that I'll be less afraid to connect to people.

The main thing I'm worried about is being uncomfortable and full of shame. I'm afriad my wife will be hurt when I tell her more about my problems.

It will probs work because I'm a man that loves routine.

I think so. I've already started the process.

Humilty, Honesty, Relying on God. Never thinking I'm done.

I'm willing to surrender my right to privacy about my acting out.
I'm willing to surrender my need to look good to others.
I'm willing to surrender my pride.
I'm willin got surrender my will to God.

I guess a combination of yes and no. I want to make changes in my life to not have the desire for porn and lust. I want to find the spirit and purpose in my life.

i think parts may be hard though

I hope to Find the spirit in my life and Find joy and happiness

Bring up difficult feelings.
Relapse

I think having this will help as a guide to work it.

I want more in my life, a good relationship, God, more drive, confidence

This program, the community

Porn shame guilt, anxiety, fear,

Yes so I can treat my family and myself with the respect I should

I become more open and honest with my spouse

I will manipulate myself into thinking my behavior isn’t wrong which turns into me manipulating my spouse

I feel it will keep me honest to working the steps

Yes so I don’t repeat my behavior

It’s not only for my spouse it’s for me

Dishonesty

I am looking forward to certain aspects. I realize more and more that my addiction controls certain aspects of my life that I want to take back over. I am not looking forward to it because admitting my faults is not easy at times. Admitting them and fixing them is even more difficult.

I am hoping that working the steps will help me to become a better father, husband, and man.

I am afraid that I will get lost in the steps and "backslide". I am hoping to stay consistent with the steps and not let other life events get in the way of my growth towards recovery.

As stated above, I worry that I will let some of the day to day happenings of my life get in the way of completing the steps.

I am not a practicing Christian. I believe in God and think that there is a Higher Power most of the time. Why now? I have hit a fork in the road in my life as a man, husband, and father. If i do not work on my recovery I will not live up to the values I have in those aspects.

Seeking help and being honest with myself and others.

Anything that works. It will be very difficult, because there are many practices that I involve myself in now that I know I will have to leave behind.

Yes. I want this to work and to help me

I become a better person. I become less tempted as I continue.

Waste of money and time

I don’t even know what this really is yet. I hope it works

Yes. Why not now.

There will be more effort.

Yes

I am looking forward to doing step work. I feel like I finally have a clear path on how I can effectively live in recovery. I've tried so many times to change my ways, but for the first time I have absolute hope in the program, myself, and my Savior.

I'm hoping to finally see my life and actions for what they really are. Working the steps and identifying my actions, character defects, and so many selfish behavior. Not only identifying them, but surrendering them to another. I hope to become humble, submissive, and build connection with myself and others. I hope to learn healthy coping skills to so I can live a healthy and happy life.

I'm afraid of discovering things about me that I never wanted to see. Things that I hoped nobody would ever know about me. I'm also afraid of taking my foot off the gas one day, not giving this everything i've got. I'm scared of getting complacent.

I am not. There are many things I do not wish to change about myself, though I have a desire to stop lusting I am fearful about what lies underneath

As painful as it will be, I’m hoping to get to the root of the problem. The why do I need this?

I’ll lose the desire to lust, which has been a major crutch in my life

I do not know that it needs to be worked everyday, but if not worked regularly I would surely slip back into relapse

I think I am ready, well ready to begin the journey. I have a lot more lust to let go off before I’m there but I’m willing to being the journey. I want to serve a mission and so starting true recovery will be a major blessing to my life and to my beautiful wife and future children

I will remember that the man I want to be is not the nan I have been previously. To do so I must submit myself fully to this program of recovery

I’m willing to let go of lust, and the roots of the problem

Yes - I’ve seen miracles from working them already and want to continue to experience miracles!
No- it’s tough and it hurts and it is scary.

Fear of myself and the addiction and recovery work will go away. I’ll gain skills and confidence and hope and whatever else needed to overcome addiction day to day.

I’ll face my fears. I’ll have to think about what I’ve done and tell other people. I’ll have to reach out to and talk openly with other people, seek help, and be very open and honest.

I feel like it needs to - it works when I work it, and I want it to work every day. It’s tough, but I need to prioritize it. That is my only option for recovery.

Yes, and I show that when I work the steps. When I choose not to work them, I choose to hold on to my addiction.

I’ll surrender, I’ll turn to God and to the group, and I’ll keep working day by day. I’ll not get lazy. I’ll monitor and check in frequently

Pride, desire to isolate, desire to hide, fear of communication and openness. Desire to manipulate and control others

I am using my own journal to answer these questions.

Yes. I have worked the steps through ARP Support and it was very good for me. I then "worked" the steps via reading the White Book, Step into Action and now the SAL book. I feel like am stagnent and seem to be failing a bit. I need to work the steps and keep ;earning to put Him first.

To find the hope and strength again that I need. Also to learn more and learn how to help my brothers in recovery.

I'm not affraid. I know working the steps gives great hope.

It does work for me. I believe the 12 steps are the word of God and teaches me how to change/repent. It must be on a daily basis to keep me safe.

Yes! I am so ready. I don't like that I have failed again after having over two years of being clean. I truly am powerless over my addiction.

I will just keep at it. After working it for a couple years then just kind of standing still for a while i just fail. I really need my relationship and trust in Him to grow and stay with it until I am safely back with Him.

I will leave behind anything it takes. I do not want that crud in my life any more.

No. I'm not. I am broken-hearted, and I've lost everything

I don't know. I have tried working the Steps, and I lost everything. I want to go back to not feeling and shutting myself off emotionally

If I work the Steps? I don't know. I'm pretty pissed off right now.

I feel like working the Steps doesn't help me deal with the pain of living my life. If anything, it amplifies it. There is no joy in life.

No. I have tried that, and my wife left, saying her goal was to come home, but within 90 days she contacted a layer for divorce. My parents left. My family is gone. I have no friends.

I don't know. Today is definitely not a good day to be doing this.

"New normal" of what? Pain? Uncontrollable sobbing that comes out of nowhere? Reminders everywhere of the things I have lost? Shame that is so deep it causes me to want to jump off a bridge, even though I am scared of heights? "New normal?" Fuck that.

No. I'm not. I am broken-hearted, and I've lost everything

I don't know. I have tried working the Steps, and I lost everything. I want to go back to not feeling and shutting myself off emotionally

If I work the Steps? I don't know. I'm pretty pissed off right now.

I feel like working the Steps doesn't help me deal with the pain of living my life. If anything, it amplifies it. There is no joy in life.

No. I have tried that, and my wife left, saying he goal was to come home, but within 90 days she contacted a layer for divorce. My parents left. My family is gone. I have no friends.

I don't know. Today is definitely not a good day to be doing this.

"New normal" of what? Pain? Uncontrollable sobbing that comes out of nowhere? Reminders everywhere of the things I have lost? Shame that is so deep it causes me to want to jump off a bridge, even though I am scared of heights? "New normal?" Fuck that.

I am looking forward to doing consistent daily work. I have signed up because I have not always been diligent in working the steps. This will brake it down into daily chunks so that I keep focused.

I will continue to move forward to make my resistance to temptations increase and I can become whole with the Saviors grace.

I may get behind. I commit not to get behind.

I've tried it by myself and my wife is not satisfied. This is a great approach!

Yes I am. This is a much easier life path to follow. It takes too much work and shame to keep up the façade. I have been getting counseling and working on sobriety for 1.5 years and thought I could do this without the work. My wife demands it and I owe her nothing less. I want to be sober.

I am really serious and trying. I feel better daily. I'm not going back.

I am leaving behind pride, selfishness, drama, fear, and shame. As things get more normal I will get more peace.

Yes! I am tired of hurting the people I love because of my addiction

I hope I can rid myself of this addiction. I want to be the husband and father my family deserves.

I'm afraid if I don't get control of this I will truly lose everything I love.

I feel it will work because it will give me daily accountability. If I'm held accountable I feel I do better avoiding the things I should.

Yes. I don't want to hurt anyone or myself anymore. Seeing how devastated my wife is now is torture. She deserves better and so do I.

My heart. I feel my heart is changing and the desire to overcome this is real this time. I'm doing it because I WANT to change and not just because I NEED to change.

I am willing to leave behind the privacy of my phone. I'm willing to open it up completely to my wife so I can be held accountable for what I do on my phone. That has been the source of everything I've done and I'm willing to open it up completely.

Yes I am! I am excited to begin the journey to recovery although I am a bot nervous

I understand what I need to do and get support and gie support as I go through this journey

Im afraid I will give up or someone will know me--typical I guess

I think it will as i9t will help me remain focused on the end goal

Yes. I have made good progress but this is what I need to make it to the top of the mountain

I am committed to change more than ever

Porn improper actions, lying etc.

Yes I am looking forward to working the steps in the hopes of it helping strengthen the relationship with me and my girlfriend as well as building trust and showing my commitment to healing

I hope It helps heal an addiction that has caused a lot of damage in myself as well as my girlfriend. I hope it gives me a new perspective and shines a positive light in my life.

I'm afraid I might get tired of working the steps and get complacent / not apply myself like I need to.

I think it will provide a sense of accountability as well as show commitment on my part for my partner and she can see that I am keeping my word I gave to her.

Yes I am ready to surrender my addiciton and heal from this. I have caused a lot of damage I thought I could fix bymself but situations I have put myseld and my partner in have proved otherwise. I am finally seeking external help after many years.

I have my girlfiends full support and I am ready to commit to a different lifestyle in order to better my day to day life and relationship with my girlfriend.

Pride / Lust / Ego and let my guard down becoming fully vulnerable

Yes, because I am in a stage of life where I don't generally feel well. I am coping with stress and life challenges very poorly. I am depressed and anxious and feel spiritually disconnected. My relationship with my wife is really struggling and I am getting more angry and filled with rage.

I hope that I can find peace and serenity. I hope that I can feel more positive and optimistic and comfortable in my own skin. I hope that I can overcome lust and gain a sense of healthy sexuality.

I am concerned about my ability to stay committed. I am very good at starting things. I excel at the brainstorming and planning stages and tend to fail at the day to day requirements of completing things.

I hope that as I work the program daily I will begin to break through the superficial attempts of overcoming my addiction to lust. I know that I need to go deeper with my recovery work in order to make a meaningful change.

I really hope so. I wish I could give a resounding YES! but I am nervous and possibly still in denial about the work that true recovery really takes. I must make changes now because my marriage is about to fail and I am very unhappy. My rage has reached almost dangerous levels and my business has been seriously struggling for several months.

I am definitely more ready to turn my will over to God. I am doing things I haven't done before. I have connected with a sponsor, I am working with a good therapist and I am attending meetings regularly.

I am ready to leave my old mindset and approach spirituality behind. I am ready to set my ego aside and seek to be more humble, teachable and submissive to God, my sponsor, my wife, my therapist and the program.

I am really looking forward to working these steps because I have seen through others how powerful they can be, and i know it works when i work it. As I've taken a more hands on approach and dug deeper with the steps I have seen how they really work.

I hope it will build the muscles of recovery, I hope it will make me live in true recovery, i hope it will make me a better man, husband, father. I hope it will help rewire my brain and give me the tools to get to a healthy place. I hope it helps me find peace.

I'm afraid that I will get discouraged and stop, or that if I miss a day I will miss the next day and it won't become a habit.

Just like working out i know that its better to be consistent then do hours and hours of work on one day and then nothing for a week. Working the steps daily brings me daily serenity, i think it will be really important to my recovery.

Yes I am willing to let it go, because my life has become unmanageable and the pain of addiction is now greater then the pain of recovery no matter the cost.

This time I have a support system, this time I have everything to gain and nothing to lose because my life is miserable with the addiction, this time from the bottom of my soul I want this, this time I recognize the power of steps, surrender and my higher power.

All of my past acting out behaviors porn, masturbation, sexting, flirting, street lust, like Jason Borne I am truly ready to give myself to this program.