With some years behind me attending meetings, working programs, etc., I've been having the impression again to work the steps a third time in a structured manner. I'm hoping to dig deeper, get more understanding, rid myself of more resentments, and continue to try to have a dire desire to surrender my will and change my behaviors. I still lack in empathy, full acknowledgment and understanding in the harm it does to me and others, and I don't understand why that is.

I hope I can get some real sobriety (more than months at a time - I hope to get past a year) so that maybe with a good amount of sobriety behind me I can understand more clearly what I described above - I want to really understand and believe that viewing pornography is wrong and destructive. I don't want to say it because the Church says so, because others say so, I want to have that conviction and belief myself (as I do already with any other harmful thing).

I'm afraid that I am so sick, or simply do not have the capacity to have lasting sobriety or recovery; that something happens within me after time that I truly have no control over (like a cancer), and there's nothing I can do about it. Whatever this "cancer" is, I will become resentful, critical, mean, want to prove and argue my case, blame, etc. despite doing everything I can to get out of it (daily calls, recovery meetings, prayer, surrender, church worship, etc.)

It's a hard pill to swallow, but I have no other choice. I know I have to, but I don't always do it.

I'm not. I have to be honest. I wish I were completely. I want to want to. But, there's something inside of me that can't. Gray areas prevent me. But, I have to try to do recovery actions and behaviors. I can't not try.

I'm starting this curriculum from no pressure at all from anyone else. I'm doing this because I want to.

I'm leaving behind pride, worry, blame, self.

Yes, I want to work as hard as I can and change!

I hope that I become a better husband to my wife. I want to be free of my addictions.

I am afraid I might end up getting triggered at times. I am not afraid that I will relapse as I have a team of people helping me.

I think it will work for me as I am willing to work for change. I haven't been good and daily working and I think that will be good.

I am ready to let go of my addiction. I sometimes am enticed by the past behaviors and attitudes as that is how I dealt with stress and negative feelings. But, I can see that this is no way to live and also I have destroyed my spouse in the process and I do not want to hurt her anymore.

I am willing to be honest and transparent. I know that I hide and run and I don't want to do that anymore. I want to have peace and be free and surrender all things to God.

My pride. My fear. My laziness. My desire for an easy life. My weaknesses. My justification. My excuses. My willingness to bend to be acceptable to anyone. My ingrained habits of looking for lust. My tendancy to be agreeable no matter what.

Yes I am. I have worked them before but I have a better understanding of its importance.

I live in recovery daily

It does not work again.

I hope and pray they do work. I hope to have conscious contact with God daily.

Yes I am.

I will work the 12 step program and let it work me.

Pride, selfishness, and longing for comfortability

Yes i am looking foreward to finally working the 12 steps, although I am nervous because i have a hard time following through with things. I've started before and stopped and really struggled to keep the momentum.

I hope to learn more about myself, what drives my addiction and why I cant seem to get lengthy sobriety. I also hope to gain a closer relationship with my Savior. I also hope to find strength to surrender my will to God in those desperate moments.

I may become complacent and stop doing the work. Or, I may continue to relapse and loose confidence in myself.

im a person who needs routine. I feel like a curriculum will give me a good routine. I'm not very apprehensive about weather or not it will work for me. I am the one who is responsible for making sure it works by continuing to work it.

I've answered that question many times only to prove myself not willing to let go yet. I can only hope that i am at a point in my life where I'm ready to let go of my addiction. I feel like I am. I hope that I am. I've tried everything else. I just cant keep going on like i have been for years. I feel like its either do it now, or, loose everything.

Im going to follow a curriculum which Im hoping will help keep my focused more on my recovery throughout the week. Im hoping i can commit to doing something each day to stay involved.

The idea that I can control my addiction instead of it controlling me. I hope I can leave behind old attitudes of complacency and pretending that I can live without boundaries. I would like to leave behind the need to distract from feeling hard emotions. I think my new normal will include dealing with real pain in a mature and responsible way so that I can experience and appreciate real happiness and joy.

Yes. I want strict

A better idea of who I am

Not finish

Something new so why not

It’s time

This program if I can figure it out

Everything

Sure I have worked it before but looking for more structure.

My goal is to stay in recovery. Be able to express my emotions.

Losing my family and marriage.

Get me in a good routine

Yea. There is power in vocalizing that

More structure with this program

Anything is what I want to say and believe.

Yes i am looking forward to working the steps again

Better and deeper understanding of how I can work the steps

I have attended 4 meetings a week for two years and my work schedule changed so I am traveling more and miss meetings more that I would like. This online course will give me opportunity to make up for meetings missed as I work the program when I'm out of town as well as home

Yes. I have worked on giving my will over and need to continue that the rest of my life. Now and later

Yes, I truly am. It's been a good 5 1/2 years since I have and every time I work them I get a great deal out of them.
Especially with a sponsor or another person that has been through them. I learn something new every time and the
fundamentals and outline of the 12 starts are the best Life 101 program out there.

That I improve my relationship with my higher power. Improve my relationship with myself and increase my assets and
let go of more defects and liabilities. And finally improve my relationships with others and start giving back and
sponsoring others and being of service in any way possible.

I'm not really afraid of what might happen. I have enough experience to know what to expect to an extent. Some of the
truths uncovered can be uncomfortable at times but it's all worth working through and growing in my recovery.

Working the steps daily or any recovery activity can work because I am focused on the solution and can connect me to
my Higher Power and to others in the program.

Absolutely. It's pretty much now or never once again and I want a good life and to be able to show up as my best self
with my loved ones and fellow human beings.

All I can do is strive for honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness. I will try my best to stay consistent and fully
commit each and every day to making progress in my recovery.

I am truly willing to leave anything and everything behind that blocks me from growth in my recovery and the 3 big
relationships. God, Myself, Others

Yes. I need to make a change. Nothing has worked permanently yet.

That my weakness can become my strength.

My wife wanting to divorce me as I am 100% honest with myself and her.

After reading the white book on my own for a month I noticed that days when I journal and read i had less lustfull thoughts.

Yes. My wife took ghe kids to her sister's for a weekend and I realized how serious this matter is.

I will rededicate myself to the step by attendingeeting every week.

Behaviors. Lifestyle. The painting of the person i want people to see.

Yes, I truly am. It's been a good 5 1/2 years since I have and every time I work them I get a great deal out of them. Especially with a sponsor or another person that has been through them. I learn something new every time and the fundamentals and outline of the 12 starts are the best Life 101 program out there.

That I improve my relationship with my higher power. Improve my relationship with myself and increase my assets and let go of more defects and liabilities. And finally improve my relationships with others and start giving back and sponsoring others and being of service in any way possible.

I'm not really afraid of what might happen. I have enough experience to know what to expect to an extent. Some of the truths uncovered can be uncomfortable at times but it's all worth working through and growing in my recovery.

Working the steps daily or any recovery activity can work because I am focused on the solution and can connect me to my Higher Power and to others in the program.

Absolutely. It's pretty much now or never once again and I want a good life and to be able to show up as my best self with my loved ones and fellow human beings.

All I can do is strive for honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness. I will try my best to stay consistent and fully commit each and every day to making progress in my recovery.

I am truly willing to leave anything and everything behind that blocks me from growth in my recovery and the 3 big relationships.

I am looking forward to working the steps. I think that the focus on the fundamentals will help me change my attitude. I need to identify the thought patterns that lead me to denial and justification. I need to recognize how powerless I am. I need to stay humble and I know that if I lose sight of humility, then I'm likely to go back to acting out behaviors and justification. I am nervous about connection because it's outside of my comfort zone. But I know it's super important for recovery.

I hope that I will remember why I am doing this. I hope that I will remember that I need to be accountable to myself and to God. And I want to remember how my actions have hurt my spouse. I hope that as I work the steps, my spouse will recognize my changes. As I say that, I realize that I cannot control what she thinks about me or recognizes in me. But I hope that she can. And I hope that I can find connection with other brothers in group.

I am generally afraid of relapse. While I am sober right now and don't feel like I'm anywhere near relapse, I understand that it is a reality that many men face. I am afraid that I will slip into patterns of pride and self-centeredness which lead me to justification and resentment. That is why I think working the steps on a daily basis will keep me humble and grounded and focused on what I hope to accomplish.

I feel like working the steps on a daily basis. Will keep me constantly reminded of my goals in recovery. I know that a huge part of working the steps and recovery is a change of attitude or humility. And there is nothing more humble than making a decision each day to study addiction and recovery and writing about it.

I am ready to let go of my addiction. I have been sober for almost 8 months, and I'm grateful for my higher power that has helped me make it through these last 8 months.

I have already disclosed everything to my spouse and church leaders. I have finished my church discipline. I have been sober for almost 8 months. My mental health has been stable since I started taking new medicine. I am more humble than I have been in a long time, and I'm willing to accept these learnings and these experiences of looking inside myself and my heart.

I'm willing to leave behind the perception that I am really smart and know the answer to a lot of things. I want to practice humility.

I am. I continue to fail trying to work the steps on my own. I am becoming more accepting of the fact that I need a structured program of recovery. I have not been able to be honest, accountable, and humble without using the checks and balances of a structured program. I am looking forward to working the steps daily. I know I must do this. No one is coming to save me. I need to do the work and hope for the best.

I hope to grow in awareness, mindfulness, balance, resilience, tolerance, empathy, and discipline. I hope to be less affected by my worries and fears and better focus on daily step work.

I am afraid to return to my addiction cycles. I am afraid of not using each day to face my mortal life with honesty, accountablility, and humility. I am afraid of not working on righting the wrongs I have done to God and others. I am afraid of not choosing the good. I am afraid of not returning with increase what I have been given.

I am learning that I do not change or grow all at once. I am becoming more aware of how much I have tried to cheat the system, to go through the motions, to rely on someone else to save me. I have learned that I will only grow if I choose to be fully committed each day to my work of recovery. I can only do what I can in my moments of each day. Every day is choice to recover or not. Just for today I choose to work my recovery.

Yes, just for today, just for this moment. I am willing right now to let go and learn and practice a new way of life. Just for now, just for this moment.

Acceptance that I can only do the work right now, just for today, in this moment. I will choose to slow down and focus on what I am doing for recovery today. I will not get caught living in the past or worry about what I will be and do tomorrow. I will practice being fully present this day in my recovery work.

I choose to leave behind my past. I choose to seek a new way of living as I do my step work today, just for today.

Yes. I've been attending the meetings for about 5 months and am still a beginner at working and knowing the steps. So I'm excited to start this undertaking. Also I just got a sponsor, so it's nice to have some direction.

I hope to find strength to help me in recovery. To learn about myself and others.

Of course I'm afraid I might relapse, or give up.

Because life's struggles are day to day, so you have to work day to day to get help.

I'm really ready, even though I know there is no quick fix, and it's something I'll need to work on the rest of my life. Why now? Because I've tried on my own so many times and failed every time. The harm I've cause myself and others. I want something better, something real.

First time I've confessed everything to my wife. First time I've tried a 12 step program.

Giving up secrecy, willing to leave behind the lust and addiction. Willing to devote time and work to overcome my addiction.

I honestly have mixed feelings. I feel like I've done things like this before so there is a thought in the back of my mind telling me that it won't help or it'll be the same this time. On the flip side, I know that I've either rushed through it in the past, or not given it the consistent effort it deserves, so I know that I don't have an accurate personal idea of how effective it can be. I have heard really good things from other members of my group and my sponsor. I'm hopeful.

I hope that I can stop using pornography in a way that is more sustainable. I also hope that I can get back to being and feeling a lot of the things that I haven't been over the last 5 or so years.

I'm afraid that nothing will change, I'll slide backwards and I'll spend money that we don't need to be spending.

I think having a structured approach is really good for my brain. The abstract lack of structure that I had when I was working the steps on my own wasn't really working for me.

I want to be. I want to say yes, but I know that there is a part of me that wants to keep it. I would say that the true version of myself is ready and willing to turn my will over and the addiction. I think I've been willing in a lot of ways at various points throughout my life, but I didn't know how to stop.

Having a daily structured program will be really helpful. I plan on continuing to touch base with my sponsor daily, limit video games, build new habits, manage stress, and do scripture study, but my structured recovery reading and writing efforts have been inconsistent and lacking.

I'm willing to leave behind the feeling of a need to see if something is possible or to explore the whatif (for example can I get around a filter, is there porn on youtube, can I make Grok create pornographic content, is there sex in this movie, etc.)

I honestly have mixed feelings. I feel like I've done things like this before so there is a thought in the back of my mind telling me that it won't help or it'll be the same this time. On the flip side, I know that I've either rushed through it in the past, or not given it the consistent effort it deserves, so I know that I don't have an accurate personal idea of how effective it can be. I have heard really good things from other members of my group and my sponsor. I'm hopeful.

I hope that I can stop using pornography in a way that is more sustainable. I also hope that I can get back to being and feeling a lot of the things that I haven't been over the last 5 or so years.

I'm afraid that nothing will change, I'll slide backwards and I'll spend money that we don't need to be spending.

I think having a structured approach is really good for my brain. The abstract lack of structure that I had when I was working the steps on my own wasn't really working for me.

I want to be. I want to say yes, but I know that there is a part of me that wants to keep it. I would say that the true version of myself is ready and willing to turn my will over and the addiction. I think I've been willing in a lot of ways at various points throughout my life, but I didn't know how to stop.

Having a daily structured program will be really helpful. I plan on continuing to touch base with my sponsor daily, limit video games, build new habits, manage stress, and do scripture study, but my structured recovery reading and writing efforts have been inconsistent and lacking.

I'm willing to leave behind the feeling of a need to see if something is possible or to explore the whatif (for example can I get around a filter, is there porn on youtube, can I make Grok create pornographic content, is there sex in this movie, etc.)

I am hesitant as it is something new, and I know that it will be hard. But I want to take control of my life again, so I feel that I need to do it.

I hope that I can find ways to control myself and become a better man. I would like to salvage my relationships and work towards having healthy relationships with others. I also want to find a way to forgive myself for my past actions.

I'm afraid that I will relapse and/or will lose some of my most precious relationships.

I need structure in my life, so I think that working on them on a day to day basis will allow me to enter recovery and hopefully one day be stable in it, continuing to get better and improving myself.

I want to maintian a close relationship with my wife, I feel I need to completly turn it over to my heavenly father in order to become the man that she want's to be with. But at the same time, if she decides to not stay with me I want to be able to have the peace from Heavenly Father in order to improve myself and be able to maintain healthy relationships.

I need to do this for myself and I need to do it for my family. So I am committed to working the steps and finding ways to control myself.

I am willing to leave behind my old habits and addictions and work on improving my character flaws.

Yes, I want to continue to learn about myself and uncover things I may not have noticed the last time I did the steps

I hope I can come closer to God, learn more about myself and things I may be avoiding, and that I can become more secure in my worth.

I will have things come up that I have to discuss with others in uncomfortable settings.

It will give me daily accountability to keep progressing.

Yes. I am recommitting to it. I have been stagnant and need this change and fresh start.

Daily accountability, consistent work. Thorough and rigorous honesty.

I am willing to give up some sleep time in the morning to get up earlier and spend 10-15 minutes working steps.

I am looking forward to working the steps. My hope is by working the steps I will reach sobriety.

I would like to understand the core of my addiction. What causes me to act out and indulge in pornography. I am also hoping to understand what boundaries I need to put in place to prevent relapsing.

I am afraid of becoming known as the "Sex Addict" among my kids, family, and friends. I also have a habit of starting something and not finishing. I want to prove to myself and wife that I am serious about change and becoming better.

I believe it will work if I work the plan. Having a sponsor I can call to surrender lust will be extremely helpful. I need to be willing to trust this process.

Yes! I realize that what I am doing (or not doing) is not going to help me reach sobriety. I have tried to do this on my own and it is not working.

Having a program. I like programs and I like being able to check things off the list.

I need to leave my pride behind. This admits that I am an addict and that my life has become unmanageable. Leaving my pride behind will allow me to fully work the plan and trust the process.

Sort of. There are moments where I am motivated, and moments that I am not. It is the outcome of working the steps that I am interested in. I realize that working the steps requires routine and consistency. I struggle with this and do not like the discomfort of dragging myself into doing things I do not feel like doing. I think that is the inherent problem for me. I do not enjoy discomfort.

Like I said before, I sincerely hope that I am able to live a life where I surrender myself to God and thereby, am able to day by day, work through the discomfort of not acting out on my lustful desires.

I am afraid of the mental and physical discomfort that abstaining causes in those moments. I have failed so much that I am not afraid of it. It is the consistent sustained effort over time that is difficult for me.

If I did it, I think that working the steps on a daily basis would help me surrender my will to God's. I think I would heal over time. My problem is the daily consistency part. I am not good at sustaining routines, even healthy ones.

I am ready to let go of my addiction and turn my will over to God. I know it is going to be hard but I want to be happy and have success in my life. I do not like the way I feel when I act out. I also love my children and my wife. I do not want to make choices in my life that jeopardize those things that mean most to me, namely my wife and children. I also do not want them to experience the pain I experienced when my parents made their own selfish choices for which I paid for.

The difference is that I have established a support network of guys that this has worked for. I hope that over time, my sustained daily efforts of establishing a routine will pay off.

I am willing to leave behind my unwillingness to make daily efforts and be consistent. I want connection and surrender to God to be a daily part of my life until I die. I know that this will be hard to be that consistent but I cannot think of a better way to live.

Yes, definitely. Because I know that they are a way to overcome. I want and need the changes that they can and will bring to me and my life.

I hope that I will become integrally better at dealing with the emotional challenges and stressors in my life and will become a much more stable and grounded person and much closer to the Lord.

I’m afraid that I’ll become complacent as I have been for most of my time in recovery and stop working the steps and cause further injury to my wife and distance myself from God.

I think it will cause me daily reflection and attention toward recovery which means to me that I am truly healing inside and will be able to be a foundation on Christ to help and support others.

Yes. I hope so. It seems there are always hard things to let go of but I want to change. I’m especially motivated now because half measures avail nothing.

I will have this structured program helping me to work the steps each day. I will also be spending money on them which helps to make me feel invested in working the steps and changing.

My anger, lust, resentment, sleeping longer than is needful, and my distractions at night that keep me from spending quality time with my wife and getting the rest I need for a productive morning and day.

To be honest, I have mixed feelings about working the steps. I’m excited about the fact that I have some hope that it might help me in my overall recovery, sobriety, and well-being. On the other hand, I feel like I’ve worked through the steps twice before once in SA and once in AA. It’s a lot of work and that feels a little overwhelming.

What I hope happens when I work the steps is that I have a spiritual awakening and a change of heart, and I gain the strength to be able to resist the temptation. That I’m able to learn the tools in turning my temptations over to my higher power and using the tools to be able to work a solid program of recovery able to stay sober and well spiritually And mentally.

What I’m afraid of is that it “won’t work“ that I’ll spend a lot of time working on this and I will still continue with the same struggles and temptations unable to fully overcome my lust addiction. I feel like I failed over and over and over again for the last 44 years so why is this going to be different?

I think working the steps on a day-to-day basis will be helpful because it’s not something I just do once a week or once in a while it’ll become a way of life and help me to start my day every day in a good place.

I would like to say I’m really ready to let go of my addiction and turn my will completely to the care of higher power. I do want to be done, but at times I take my will back and feel like I can dabble in my addiction without fully diving into it And that never works well, but I’m hopeful that this time will be different.

What will be different this time is it? I will be working the Steps with a sponsor in the SA program. I don’t think I’ve ever really worked the Steps with a sponsor in the SA program. I’ve done it in the AA program.

When I’m willing to leave behind is my status quo. And my laziness. I don’t want to go to meetings. I don’t want to be involved in SA, but I’m willing to do it because it’s been suggested. My willingness is good. I’m willing to do things that I don’t want to do so that I can recover.

I am looking forward to working the 12 steps with a focus on SA. For the last 7 months I have been participating in AA with a dual focus, AA/SA. I have been reticent to join a SA group as they are coed and do not feel comfortable in that setting. I have attended a ARP group but find it does not have the necessary rigorous focus necessary to address the depth of my addiction. I have achieved some level of sobriety in AA (both for SA & AA) but my primary addiction is SA and need this specific focus.

As I commit to and focus on the SAL step work my seeking of lust in all forms will be relieved and I will begging to experience a new freedom from its grasp. A daily reprieve, that extends into long term sobriety. I hope to gain the trust of my wife through a living amends and stop managing behaviors related to the fear of outcomes of my most important relationships

A few months ago, i would have said that I am afraid that the work would not produce the results as countless other efforts have failed (mostly driven by self-will). Today, i do not have that fear. I am afraid that things between my wife and I will not work out. That she will decide to separate and divorce. I have done more that enough to give her every justification. I do not blame her for any decision she may make. I also know that my recovery is not dependent on her behavior or decisions. I am committed to living in recovery. It is hard to keep separate. Reliving the betrayal story and her participation in recovery groups is fearful. Not from the standpoint of additional discovery, I feel I have been honest and forthcoming, I fear that each time it is relived, the pain is renewed and her decision to stay is re-evaluated. So far, we are together in the same house but the math for her is daunting. I understand. There is a level of devastation can seem insurmountable.

Because I am experiencing it. The Steps are an amazing miracle and the light that comes through working them is more powerful than any thing I have tried.

Yes. I find that as I progress in recovery, the first 3 steps are part of daily contemplation, meditation and prayer. Constant challenges come and allow me to renew my commitment to let go of my addiction.

Daily, rigorous study, meditation, prayer, goal setting, follow through and fulfilling commitments have become part of my routine. Working the SA 12 steps will help me learn more about the specifics of my addictive sexual patterns and be a welcome change to anything i have tried.

I am willing to leave behind anything it takes to live in daily recovery. I pray for a new normal.

Si tengo el deseo de trabajar los pasos porque se que me van a ayudar a tener más conciencia de la gravedad de la enfermedad que tengo, de lo impotente que soy, del daño que está haciendo en mi vida y en la de mi familia y de las oportunidades que estoy desperdiciando de ser feliz, tener paz y ser libre de esta adicción. Creo que esta herramienta me puede ayudar a organizarme a tener un trabajo diario de los pasos.

Me gustaría poder ser más consciente de mi mismo y de Dios y obtener la fortaleza para enfrentar las raices de mi enfermedad. Me gustaría poder llegar a mantenerme sobrio, tener paz, sentirme libre, conectado con mi poder superior, relacionarme mejor con los demás (especialmente con mi familia) y poder llegar a ser alguien del que no me averguence ni sienta autoodio o rechazo.

Tengo miedo de la rigurosa honestidad con mi esposa, el dolor que me provoca cambiar mis hábitos, el recordar el dolor que causé, de verme a mi mismo tal como soy, de fallar otra vez y que este nuevo intento tampoco funcione.

El programa es un programa de 24hs y la herramienta de los pasos es fundamental. El trabajo de ayer no me sirve para hoy ni para mañana, por eso debo hacer el trabajo hoy para mantenerme sobrio. Cuando en el pasado trabajé los pasos diariamente fue el tiempo que más sufrí pero más sobrio estuve.

Quiero dejar la adicción pero tengo miedo de entregarle mi voluntad y mi vida a un poder superior. Quiero hacerlo y sé intelectualmente que es lo que debo hacer, pero quizás la enfermedad me hace tener mucho miedo del dolor que va a causarme este proceso de cambio. Siento que ahora es el momento porque estoy tocando fondos emocionales y físicos y que si no comienzo realmente la recuperación, lamentablemente voy a perder a mi familia, mi matrimonio, mi membresía en la iglesia y quizás termine literalmente con mi vida.

Me gustaría poder reconciliarme con mi religión y empezar a potenciar las herramientas que me da la iglesia con el programa. Me gustaría poder encontrar un sponsor que realmente entienda lo que significa ser miembro de mi iglesia, estar casado y tener esta enfermedad. Quisiera poder trabajar los pasos diariamente, tener sus sugerencias y poder realmente hacer los cambios necesarios un día a la vez.

Estoy dispuesto a dejar hábitos como el comer compulsivamente, actividades que me sacan de la realidad como los juegos, las series de TV, youtube y otros pasatiempos que no me conectan con mi poder superior.

Yes I am, so I don't feel trapped anymore

I will be happier and feel free

That this might not help me

I am unsure about this, but I feel it will most likely help because I will more focused on it

I am ready, and I am ready to do it now because why wait

I will by one myself to do it everyday

My old habits of allowing myself to be in position to do it